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21 January 2010 @ 06:39 am
Hey, I'm new here. I am 17 years old. Been going back and forth between anorexic and bulimic habits for over 5 years. Lowest weight was in the double digits, however, I recently gained a lot of weight trying to 'recover' or some bullshit like that. Now I'm in the 120's. It's pretty fucking gross.

Aaannyyways, I've been trying to NOT indulge my bulimic habits because they are often the cause of weight gain. I've got restricting in the mornings and during the day down, but for some reason, I find it incredibly hard to resist the urge to binge at night. Does anybody else have this problem/have any good ways to prevent it?
 
 
15 January 2010 @ 07:17 am
havin' lunch today with my bestie, dee, who's on a crash diet right now...can't wait to see her bc she's lost like six or seven pounds since i've seen her last. she doesn't have an ED - yet - but she's starting to think exactly like me and say all of the exact same things i would say.

i'm not going to sit around and be a hypocrite and tell her not to restrict; i already told her that. she knows all about my ED. she says she's all right and doesn't have a problem, and i believe her, because half the time *i* don't think i have a problem, either.

i like to think of the way i eat as a calorie-restricted lifestyle. XD anybody heard of CRON? that's calorie restriction with optimal nutrition - people who live a calorie restricted lifestyle, but still try to eat balanced and get the most nutrition at the same time. they advocate being at a weight that's just above underweight, as well. they say it makes you live longer and be less prone to disease.

*shrugs shoulders* i just thought it was interesting. i was thinking of telling everyone in my life that i'm trying that out, lol.
 
 
14 January 2010 @ 06:18 pm
hey :) i'm aleksis, i'm 17 and i'm new here, no idea what i weigh at the moment because of mighty fear of scales but just by looking it's far too much...so am either eating nothing or everything depending on situation...it needs to be more of the first if anything's going to change

so yeah, hey :D

xxx
 
 
14 January 2010 @ 08:35 am
but yeah, that last one didn't count, as i was performing my mod dutiez. and also, i don't care.

yesterday:
breakfast = three egg whites - 45 cals
snack = 12 almonds - 80 cals
lunch = bread and olive oil w/ garlic salt - 200 cals
snack = apple - 45 cals
supper = salad from bk (and i'm ashamed to say it had ALL the trimmings...that was the first time i've had croutons in a YEAR. sadly, they weren't worth it) - 500 cals
total = 870 cals

exercise:
jillian michaels: back in action. 'nuff said. she kicked my ASS and i'm still sore. didn't even get to treadmill it like i had planned. :( that's okay, though, i'll just get on this morning at some point.

i figure, since i'm doing tons more exercise than i usually do (read: ANY exercise at all), the fact that i generally total out 870 cals will be all right. i'm trying to eat a bit more balanced so i don't start looking all sick again...and i'm also trying to eat every three hours to try and speed up my metabolism...and i'm rambling.

blah blah blah. i just felt like spamming you all with my leetle plan, 'specially since i want y'all to feel completely comfortable posting whateverthehellyouwant here, 'cuz there's basically no rules. you can't say shit like that almost anywhere else, but here, we don't give a rat's arse.

kste
 
 
14 January 2010 @ 08:09 am
so i thought i'd have a bit of fun with the few members we already have and post somethin' i'm pretty sure you'll enjoy.


http://dietchoices.com/


*hundreds* of different diet plans, and reviews for them, *including* "ana" diets; there's a whole section of the site on them. of course, they're "discouraged" by the site, but they tell you how to do them anyway.

have fun with that.

kste
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13 January 2010 @ 07:48 am
and the shell splinters into a thousand little pieces. that burns my biscuits.

i'm in such a strange mood this morning...i'm feeling extremely pro-everything at the moment...well, you know what i mean. i'm feeling all rebellious and awesome and like i could fly...

and that's why i love this comm. flippin comments like that wouldn't even be okay in the stinkin pro ana waiting room. i swear everything has become so moderated and so pro-recovery (which is good in its own place, but not when it takes over into the pro-ana forums)...this place is like a breath of fresh air where i can say whatever the fuck i want and no one can say shit to me because I'M THE FUCKING MOD, THAT'S WHY MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i love it. and i'm also in the mood to say fuck off to anyone who wants to tell me it isn't okay to starve myself if i want; it's my body, and these are my rules. end of story. and if i want to be fucking HAPPY AS A DAMN LARK while i do it, that's none of your business, either.

and i WILL say fuck yes nothing tastes as good as thin feels and all of that bullshit cliche business because I CAN. and i WILL say 2-4-6-8 who do we appreciate because I CAN. and, yes, i think i WILL say stay strong and think thin LMBIGFATAO because I CAN.

whatchoo gon' do bout it, punk? that's what i thought. NOTHIN.

i'm about to go modify the rules here.
 
 
13 January 2010 @ 10:57 pm
Today was bad ate too much. Tomorrow will be better.
 
 
11 January 2010 @ 07:33 am
first time posting here in a while. i miss it seriously. this place, i mean. it feels like home.

going this morning to buy more apples and also some high-fiber bread to have bread and oil with...that's going to start being my lunch, i think. nothing but safe foods for me from here on out. if it isn't on the list, it isn't going into me.

i'm thinking of starting the online jillian michaels thing...man i love that bitch. she's so kick ass and awesome and i know she'll whip my fat ass into shape. whoot!
 
 
05 April 2009 @ 12:28 pm
I will be okay..nothing happened to me. lol

How is everyone today?
 
 
04 April 2009 @ 09:32 pm
help  
Took a glycerin laxative...
and its been over an hour and I still have not shit. I don't know what to do..
assume its ok and take another?
or go to the DOCTOR!!!